Lesson about patience and gratitude

I had wasting 48 hours in my life without doing anything this weekend. I can't focus in my study or whatever I'm doing and I don't know why. Worse isn't it? Maybe because I'm actually thinking about writing this. Several weeks ago, I got my results. It was not very good but better than previous one, Alhamdulillah.

In Facebook, all my friends are really happy with their results. Many of them succeed in listing the dean list. Some of them asking me, "Do you get the dean list?" It's nearly a month they talk about results. You know what, for a second in my life I feel like I'm a loser. After a minute I came back to my senses. Astagfirullahala'zim. I had done a sin. I keep telling Him that I love Him more than anything else but when He tries me, what happen? You can say thousands time that you love that person but at time comes asking you to prove it then only you realize how strong your love is.

Sahih International

And as for man, when his Lord tries him and [thus] is generous to him and favors him, he says, "My Lord has honored me."

Malay

(Dalam pada itu manusia tidak menghiraukan balasan akhirat), oleh yang demikian, maka kebanyakan manusia apabila diuji oleh Tuhannya dengan dimuliakan dan dimewahkan hidupnya, (ia tidak mahu bersyukur tetapi terus bersikap takbur) serta berkata dengan sombongnya: "Tuhanku telah memuliakan daku!"

Sahih International

But when He tries him and restricts his provision, he says, "My Lord has humiliated me."

Malay

Dan sebaliknya apabila ia diuji oleh Tuhannya, dengan disempitkan rezekinya, (ia tidak bersabar bahkan ia resah gelisah) serta merepek dengan katanya: "Tuhanku telah menghinakan daku!"

Sahih International

No! But you do not honor the orphan

Malay

Jangan demikian, (sebenarnya kata-kata kamu itu salah). Bahkan (perbuatan kamu wahai orang-orang yang hidup mewah, lebih salah lagi kerana) kamu tidak memuliakan anak yatim, (malah kamu menahan apa yang Ia berhak menerimanya);

Sahih International

And you do not encourage one another to feed the poor.

Malay

Dan kamu tidak menggalakkan untuk memberi makanan (yang berhak diterima oleh) orang miskin;

Sahih International

And you consume inheritance, devouring [it] altogether,

Malay

Dan kamu sentiasa makan harta pusaka secara rakus (dengan tidak membezakan halal haramnya),

Sahih International

And you love wealth with immense love.

Malay

Serta kamu pula sayangkan harta secara tamak haloba!

( Al- Fajr 89: 15-20)

When I recite the above verses and read the meaning of it, I remembered that He tries us in many different ways. Everything in this world will never be eternal except Allah s.w.t.Whatever tries that He gave to us, He will judge us in Akhirat. He know what's the best for each of us. Who are we to go against Him? Who are we to complain this and that to Him? We are just His slaves. He can do anything to us but hundreds time he told us in Quran that He is The Most Merciful. My friend said, " Patience and gratitude go together. When you're not patient, you start complaining. And the fact that you're complaining is the sign that you're not grateful. " This is what happen and He taught me well about it.

"When Allah s.w.t tries you for many times about the same thing, it means that He want you to be strong enough facing it because that's the point of your weakness."