Diary: The reminder about your experiences

A small notebook will do.

Rewind to 90's era, many friends have their personal diaries. They were writing about their life each day. Girlfriends, crazy with cute, glitters, feminine diary stuffs. They said, Diary is a book to throw out whatever came across their mind, things that tortured the heart, story about crush with somebody. Hell ya. But I'm not like that just because I'm scared my mom will read it. Haha....  As I said in the previous post, surviving alone in this land give me a lot of time to think about many things, almost everything. I believe that if we pay attention in our life, we will learn something new everyday. That lessons, we can use later if we come cross with the same situation ever again.

But to write a diary, with long flowery words turning upside down is not suit for me. No way. I just wrote quotes that actually simplify what happen during each day. I got this idea from a book wrote by Dr 'Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni. It has been a month since my first trial & wallah, quite a lot motivated & inspiring new life quotes. Some I shared it in Facebook but most of them I keep it as secrets. So, whenever I feel down, I will look at those quotes again. Thus, I can regain my strength & step forward with confident. Call me Miss Independent, I'm only dependent on Allah s.w.t. With no family members & close friends, in the end becoming an intelligent loner here is not so bad.

Most people tend to forget easily. That's why in Islam we were asked to always remind & give advices to each other. By this 'diary quotes' method, I could say, you can make it as reminder to yourself. It's about your life experiences. Especially those who in the same boat with me, living alone with nobody around that you can hang out. You can either wrote quotes to keep the memories on a particular day or you can have a look back when you need simple words but easily touch your heart to keep you move on. Words that expressed from the heart will touch a heart too. <3 nbsp="">

Smile, please.... =)

Hidup sendirian di sini tanpa ahli keluarga terdekat dan teman rapat membuatkan saya lebih banyak bermuhasabah. Belajar dari apa yang berlaku di sekeliling. Lihat, fikir dan tafsir. Imbau kembali segala nasihat yang pernah diterima selama ini. Salah seorang rakan pernah menegur bahawa dia sangat tidak suka melihat wajah saya yang masam, moody. I just tell her I don't have the feeling to smile so what to do? I can't understand why she feel so disturbed about it. The reason is just that she can look at my face while I can't unless I look into a mirror. Thus, it's very important for us to hear advices from others.

Here, while doing research, I slowly understand what she means about my face. Research world is a very tiring, stressful, restless life. But when you had come to the end, when you accomplished what you had planned for, you will feel bless. It's just amazing. Doing something for the benefits of the human being around the world are just great. However, along the work you need a lot of patience and energy. Simply the energy can be develop from SMILE. Just by spreading smile. Just by receive smile from others around you. I'll feel motivated when I begin my day with smile. I smile to the staffs, lecturers, doctors and mostly everybody I met along the way to the postgraduate room. I feel good about it. 

I could say that I learn how to smile here. Whenever I met people with sour face, moody and full of anger, I really hate it. Maybe this is what my friend felt before and now it's my turn. By just looking at their face, it's enough to add a lot more stress on you so whenever I met people like that, I just walk away before I get infected with their moody. I admire a waiter from a restaurant here. He loves to smile although when both of us talk in different dialect which make the conversation quite difficult to end. But we didn't mad. We just accept each other weakness & slowly make some sign language to help us understand. There is also a master student who loves to smile. Whenever I feel down, by looking at his smile it's enough to make me feel better. So, the moral of this story is please smile in whatever condition you are. It will helps a lot in managing stress. For you & others around. Akhir kata hayatilah sabda Rasulullah s.a.w "Janganlah kamu meremehkan kebaikan apa pun walaupun sekadar bertemu saudaramu dengan wajah yang manis (wajah gembira dan senyuman)" -Hadis riwayat Muslim.

Cute calendar 2014

I don't create the picture. All taken from Google images... feel free to share =)

Terbang

Budak-budak kampung, bila tengok kapal terbang lalu mesti teruja. Beria-ria melambai macamlah orang yang dalam kapal terbang tu boleh nampak. Saja seronok. Bila diteliti gerakan kapal terbang, rasanya sesuai digunakan sebagai analogi jalan hidup sesetengah orang. Nak tau macam mana? Begini kisahnya.

Bermula dari masa menghidupkan enjin, cuba kita tengok, kapal terbang memerlukan masa yang lebih lama kan berbanding kereta? Bagi menghidupkan enjin kereta, paling lama pun cuma ambil masa dalam 5 minit pada waktu pagi. Lepas tu, kereta dah boleh dipandu pecut di atas jalan raya. Berbeza dengan kapal terbang, enjinnya perlu dipanaskan dengan lebih lama. Secara tepat berapa lama saya tak tahulah cuma yang saya lihat ada la dalam 20 minit. Lepas tu pula, kipas di bahagian sayap kiri diputar dan kemudiannya diikuti dengan kipas di bahagian sayap kanan. Gerakan kapal terbang pada permulaannnya pun agak lambat, bergerak berpusing ke sana sini, berhenti seketika sebelum ia berupaya menambahkan kelajuan untuk terbang tinggi dan pergi lebih jauh. 

Sama juga dengan kehidupan sesetengah orang. Gerakannya sangat lambat pada peringkat permulaan. Ramai di antara saintis dan pengkarya terkenal yang menghadapi kesukaran dalam pelajaran contohnya Albert Einstein, Bill Gates, Leonardo da Vinci. Autisme, disleksia & ADHD (hiperakif) adalah di antara kesukaran yang seringkali dihadapi oleh kanak-kanak di sekolah. Saya sendiri menghadapi masalah untuk menulis suatu ketika dahulu. Dicop sebagai lembap, bodoh dan kata-kata lain yang seumpamanya sudah menjadi perkara biasa. Bak kata pepatah dalam cerita KungFu Panda 2, " Your story may not have such a happy beginning but that doesn't make you who you are. It is the rest of your story, who you choose to be." Kita boleh pilih untuk percayakan kata-kata hinaan orang & terus kekal di takuk lama. Atau kita boleh percayakan diri sendiri & Tuhan bahawa Allah s.w.t tidak menciptakan orang yang bodoh. Setiap orang ada kelebihannya yang tersendiri. Dengan syarat kita perlu berusaha mencari apa peranan kita hidup di dunia ini.

Permulaan hidup sebagai pelajar sekolah yang menghadapi pelbagai kesukaran dalam pelajaran sedikit sebanyak menggugat ketenangan jiwa diri sendiri & ibu bapa. Namun percayalah, jika kita gigih berusaha, suatu hari nanti pasti kita akan menggenggam kejayaan, dengan izin Allah s.w.t. Kegagalan bukan dinilai ketika kita tersadung dek ujian dan jatuh tapi ianya dipanggil kegagalan jika kita berhenti bangkit semula sedangkan hayat masih dikandung badan. Kejayaan pula bukannya dinilai pada berapa gulung ijazah yang diperoleh tetapi ke mana tempat kita kembali, syurga atau neraka? Ada orang yang memang Allah s.w.t takdirkan untuk dia menghadapi cabaran yang kuat di peringkat permulaan hidup seperti gerakan kapal terbang yang berpusing ke sana sini dengan perlahan. 

Di satu ketika, apabila enjinnya sudah cukup panas untuk bergerak, ia dapat memecut dengan laju & terbang tinggi ke udara sehingga ia mencapai altitud yang dikehendaki. Iaitu di paras yang selesa untuk ia terbang dengan lebih jauh. Lebih pantas berbanding kereta yang memecut di atas lebuh raya. Namun, perlu dingatkan walau setinggi mana pun ia terbang, ada masanya apabila ia bertembung dengan awan, gerakannya akan menjadi sedikit goyang. Itu belum masuk hujan lebat, ribut petir, salji tebal dan macam-macam lagi bahaya yang ada di udara. Untuk terbang tinggi, langkah keselamatan yang diambil perlu lebih rapi agar tidak terus jatuh terhempas menyembah Bumi. Segala kesukaran, penderitaan dan kepayahan yang dihadapi dengan sabar sebenarnya menjadi kekuatan yang luar biasa bagi seseorang itu menghadapi cabaran pada hari esok. Ketabahan diri adalah mustahil untuk dibina dalam masa yang singkat.

Why Muslims women are not approachable?

I read a confession from a non muslim student in UKM. He wrote this confession in the Facebook:

Ada this one malay girl from KTSN always wear red jacket and long black hijab. I don't know her name, i think maybe she's from FSK or FGG, not sure. very cute, always play with cats, feed them food and sometimes i see her jogging at the lake by herself. i wanted to approach her but when she's alone, i get too shy. when she's with her friends, i lagi shy. i don't think i can ever do it. most of the time i think she's too good for me. i think there's something about certain muslim girls that make guys feel that they are not approachable. for example, this girl whom i find breath taking. aih what to do, i can only observe her from far, i can never be brave enough to approach her. 

He mix some words from Bahasa Melayu and English so I'm sorry for those who feel quite disturbing while reading it. I don't have time to translate it in proper English because I'm quite rushing here. The sentence which I bold is the most attractive sentence in this confession, to me. The answer is in the Quran. 

I'm able to read Quran since I was 6-7 years old but only now I understand this verse. How interesting. I understand it through a confession made by a non muslim. I think back, I look at what am I going through, my friends, what we always questioned about, I feel shame. When we look at others who always being the centre of attention, a lots of men admiring them, we ask ourselves " Are we not good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough? Seems like nobody look at us, like us."  Well then when I think back, will I be happy and able to live peacefully if men look at me whenever I go, whatever I do? No, certainly i won't. Allah s.w.t had promised like in the above verse, those who wear appropriately according to the guidelines in the Quran, He will protect them. Hijab is NOT the symbol of oppression against women but yet hijab is the symbol of modesty. This is the meaning for 'things that make muslim women look like unapproachable'. The person also refer to certain muslim girls. Yes, the truth is only certain who dress up properly according to Muslimah code dress.